The Sea

Since its new year, its the time to liven up and look forward to what’s coming upon us. I have been very vocal about how unhappy I was this 2012, but I hope 2013 would be much a better year for me. I have no ”new year resolution”, but I’ll still do my best, and starting from now, I’d throw any setback away from me. After all, I’m a dreamer and I can’t let anything hinder me.

With that, I share with you, probably the most evident poem of my depression. Someday there will come another chapter in my life that will bring sadness again, but until then, I bring the strength I have from these sad moments in my life.


The days greet me with sadness,

And I respond with my madness.

Flames just waiting to burst,

I place a fist to my heart first.


To agony, my eyes are closed,

But to myself, it’s clearly exposed.

I beget the sorrows of everyday,

And I try hard to forget as time goes away.


A tired soul in me,

I try to rise up for harmony.

And again, life pulls me down,

Imprinting to myself, more than a frown.


Though the weight of the world is in my shoulders,

I speak, no one listens, and it lingers.

I drowned myself for I can’t take no more,

Behold! I’m still alive, walking past the shore.



2013: Happy New Year

2013: Happy New Year

2013: Happy New Year by berryjudi featuring a couture nail polish

Ice Queen

Ice Queen

Ice Queen by berryjudi featuring giorgio armani

Wool coat
$350 –

Long coat

Casadei platform high heels
$1,360 –

Amrita singh jewelry

Blue nile ring

Flower brooch

Anna sui
$91 –

Giorgio armani

Pink Christmas

Pink Christmas

Pink Christmas by berryjudi featuring yves saint laurent

Yves saint laurent

Butterfly earrings
$23 –

Jazz eyeshadow
$23 –

$75 –

Santa Tees & Hoodies :)

Santa Tees & Hoodies :)

Santa Tees & Hoodies 🙂 by berryjudi featuring graphic tees

Gray School Day

Seasons Greetings everyone!

I’m having a good time and one of the reasons is that I’m out of school, if I sound like I hate school (I don’t really hate school, just my course) well…you get my tone. 🙂

Here is a poem I made just this month. A good thing about the holiday season is my bitterness is somehow ”turned off”. 🙂

So here it is:

On the painted bench I sat perfectly still,

But waiting here is out of my will.

I look up to change what’s in sight,

Nothing more than the florescent light.


I slouched with my head down,

For nothing’s heavier than a frown.

Slowly, almost relaxing, I closed my eyes,

To feel what’s inside, to hear my body’s cries.


Familiar voices came across me,

Then I opened my eyes to see.

But everything happened in a blur,

I’m still alive, aren’t I sir?


Suddenly I’ve been kissed,

Our classes have been dismissed.

Nothing is worse than being gray,

Trying to be okay on a school day.

It’s A Wonderful Life

It's A Wonderful Life

It’s A Wonderful Life by berryjudi featuring a chain necklace

Dear Diary #10

December 20, 2012

Dear Diary,

This is my 101st post! I just want to say thank you, because this blog has been a witness of what I dealt with this year. Because of this blog, somehow I don’t feel alone. I have an outlet to express my feelings, an outlet that can see how much I’ve grown. This blog made me  more comfortable in ‘sharing’ because I don’t share that much, I’m too quiet but as Stephen Hawking said, “Quiet people have the loudest minds” and that’s true in my case. I may not speak, even to my own relatives and college buddies but there is a lot going in my mind. I may be an introvert but it’s like I have adapted a sense of ‘sharing’. And that is why I have learned to love blogging, it’s like an accessory to who I am.

To my followers and to all of those who liked my posts, a very warm and sincere thank you.  It doesn’t matter to me how many liked one post, just one person liking it already brings a smile to me. Its because I made an effect to you in somehow, in some little way. Thank you everyone. 🙂

I hope we’ll all be happy this season and happy new year in advance! Hugs and kisses. 🙂

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