Bus rides

What is it with looking out the window of a bus and suddenly you’re on “reflecting mode”? I don’t ride the bus often, but the Jeepney (a public vehicle in the Philippines) has the same effect too, sometimes…even cars. Maybe its because you’re just looking outside, doing nothing but still, you’re moving. Life never stops moving and sometimes we just watch and when the ride is over, we’re back to normal in whatever we do whether fulfilling or not.


Dear Diary #11

January 16, 2013

Dear Diary,

I know I don’t post much lately…It’s not because I don’t want to, it’s just that the days would just pass by. I’m with mixed emotions because this is what I wanted, I want the days to pass by quickly because I can’t wait to graduate. It’s still a year before that but I can’t wait, as you know, I’m unhappy with my course…But I have been coping up as I said. And I do feel better, sometimes too better I think. And maybe that’s good rather than me sulking every time. I think I could go on too without another visit to the guidance councilor. It feels good that I can cheer up myself once again.

Moving on, last night I finished the anime Daddy Long Legs. I’ve been watching the episode since last year and it gave me quite an experience. Its an adaptation of Jean Webster’s novel with some changes. I haven’t read the novel yet, but the anime is somehow nostalgic. It was aired and dubbed in the Philippines when I was young and honestly, I didn’t watch it, except for one time and that’s all I can recall. It’s either they aired it when I was in Guam or that it is airing on TV and I refuse to watch it simply because I’m not too fond of Judy’s “Pippi Longstocking” hair.  What made it nostalgic was that I share the same name with the protagonist- Judy, but mine is spelled with an ‘i’. I remember high school classmates who call me Judy Abbott sometimes. And last semester a classmate asked if I knew Daddy Long Legs. I would always say yes because I am familiar with it but haven’t had the chance to really watch the series. I realized it’s one of the anime series that made our childhood along with Princess Sarah, Sailor Moon, Doraemon, Hello Kitty, etc.

So I decided to watch the series and I was very surprised because I enjoyed watching it, especially during Christmas vacation. I watched episode after episode and though it was predictable at times, it was very fun to watch. What made me so engaging was the fact that I actually have a lot of similarities with Judy Abbott. I’m also a writer, I’m also a poet, she has written short stories which I’ve done too, she has written novels which is I want to do, they acted William Shakespeare’s As You Like It while that was the play assigned to our class in our junior year, she writes letters regularly and I write letters to my two best friends though not regularly,  she writes to her ”Daddy” while I’ve always written in diaries even though it seems like I’m just talking to myself. Her birthplace is New York which is where I want to go. Even the way she acts when teased with boys, I see myself and I just laugh while watching.

I couldn’t believe that I would instantly fall in love with it.  I judged it even before watching it and now that I gave it a chance, I just simply adore it. And like anyone who has ever finished watching a series, I’m in a “what now?” state, but it left quite an impression on me and I’m glad it did.

What I want now is Judy’s cheerful nature, when I was a child I know I was that cheerful, but growing up I began to show a shy, quiet, introverted side in me. Sometimes I miss that child, sometimes I cry when I remember her, it’s like I don’t know her but I know I do. Maybe she is still inside me, I’m not sure, but when I know I’ll tell you. Cheers, 🙂

Patay Na Pangarap

Araw-araw kong iniiyakan,

Ang pangarap na tila di na makakamtan.

Marami kaya ang makikiramay,

Sa nadarama kong umay?


Sa isip ko ito’y laging dumadalaw,

Di ko lubusang maisip na ito’y papanaw.

Binuhusan ko ng pagmamahal,

At mabuti lang ang inasal.


Sa puso kong nasasaktan,

Mapapawi ba ito ng ulan?

Ako kaya’y matuwa sa mangyayari,

Kung may magpamalas na bahaghari?


Sa inalay kong bulaklak,

Di pa rin mananaig ang aking iniyak.

Gusto ko buhay ka,

At sana may umaga pa…

Paunawa Ko Sa Iyo…

Kung ‘di man maging tayo,

Baka ako’y mapunta sa isang tibo

Kaya sana pag-isipan mo,

And desisyong ng iyong puso.


Ang pag-ibig ko’y ipagpapatuloy,

Di ka man tanggapin ng aking iloy.

Damdamin ko’y laging dumadaloy,

Sa lilim ng balat mo naamoy.


Sa maamong bulaklak,

Naaalala ang iyong halimuyak.

At ako’y nagagalak,

Sa bawat dinig ng iyong halakhak.


Matanto mo sana,

aking munting paunawa,

Dahil sa bawat pagdating ng umaga,

Sinanasabi kong mahal na yata kita.


Don’t take the second line too seriously, I’m straight. 🙂

Miss Kita.

Miss ko kapag buong maghapon nasa kwarto mo ako, magkwekwentuhan lang tayo .

Miss ko kapag ang bilis ng oras magtatagal nyan ako sa inyo, aligaga pag uuwi nyan ako.

Miss ko yung masarap na puto gawa ng mama mo, kapag sa inyo talagang maaalala ko.

Miss ko kahit ako lang nagsasalita, ikaw naman todo magpatawa.

Miss ko yung tawa mo, dahil mapapatawa narin ako.

Miss ko yung paguusapan natin ang hinaharap, dahil pareho tayo ng pinapangarap.

Miss ko pag nasa tabi kita, at wala akong iniisip na iba.

Miss ko nung pareho tayo ng uniporme, yun ang panahon natin eh.

Miss ko nung pareho tayo ng crush, di nagpapahalata pag nag-blush.

Miss ko pag may problema ako, patatawanin mo ako.

Miss ko makita ka, kahit saglit ayos na.

Miss ko pag itatawid mo ako sa daan, kahit di naman ako masasagasaan.

Miss ko ang magkayap tayo, uy, pumapayat ako!

Miss ko pag makikinig ka sa mga gawa ko, isa ka sa mga taong nasa Wonderland ko.

Miss ko kahit bitin yung ginawa ko, magrereklamo ka, pero gusto mo.

Miss ko yung araw na nakilala kita, dahil, basta, miss kita!

The Anticipation Never Dies

Nowadays, in my country, girls like Batman because of Daniel Padilla and Superman because of Kimpoy Feliciano, it’s not that I don’t like them, I do. But for me, I don’t just like these superheroes because their names are attached to these celebrities but because I really do like them. Okay, Superman I like a bit but Batman…I love.

I know it’s not everyone’s cup of tea but everyone can relate when it comes to being a fan. We attach a part of ourselves to it that’s why we get hurt when we get ridiculed with our fandom. Others go overboard with their quirky actions but others stay closeted in their social fears. I myself was discreet about these things. But then I realized, why hide it?  There’s nothing to be ashamed of, it’s a part of you. Whatever may lie ahead I’m not scared to say I watch anime, I’m a cinephile, whenever I’m in a bookstore you’d find me in the classics section, and I once contemplated on being a ballerina. I am not and will never be ashamed, for these things make up the totality of who I am. Like our professor once said, “don’t look at people only in some parts, see them as a whole”.

No matter how much perplexing it is to others, “true blue” fans know and understand the essence of what they idolize. Synonyms for “fan” include: aficionado, devotee, enthusiast, even addict and maniac, etc. Though similar, the words “fan” and “fanatic” have different meaning, but oftentimes we just assume that fan is short for fanatic because both words are used loosely. In my case, I’d like to think that the word fan stems more from ”fascination”. It draws us close to what we like, the fascination we see that others may not.


Putting things into perspective, I have been waiting for more than a year to finally see “The Dark Knight Rises” and every trailer is just amazing as the previous one. After each viewing I am left with excitement and thirst for more to come. As cheesy as it may sound, its like a dream coming true. Its about the whole experience you’ll get in the silver screen, the chills, the laughs and most importantly the ride you go along with throughout the movie. As the clock ticks and the time comes near, the excitement just grows gradually. You might think one may get tired or bored for waiting so long but no, the anticipation never dies.

Ice Scramble!


Creamy, milky goodness…leaves you asking, is this the food of the goddess?

Ice cold to perfection with the purpose of dismissing the warm heat, an inevitable summer treat.

Yummy milk powder makes you ask for another.

Chocolate syrup tempts my taste buds to slurp.

In seconds I was left with an empty cup, sweet treat you lighten me up!

I offer thy sweet treat, a poem that only speaks truth, I speak of its perfection in my most enjoying consumption.

This dessert is basically crushed ice with evaporated milk, sugar, and flavoring. It is then sprinkled with milk powder and chocolate syrup. Most Filipinos are familiar with this treat because of the vendors that peddle in the streets. Recently, it gained more spotlight because of creative minds selling this treat with an array of toppings like M&Ms in little stalls in malls and other places (presumably where people would want a little snack). What’s fascinating about this treat is that, its part of the culture of us Filipinos, our appetite for cold desserts stems from the fact that we live in a warm climate. And to add that, I have been longing for the vendor of this treat to come by our village, he comes everyday but for some reason he hasn’t come for days. The more days he didn’t come and the more I craved.

But at last! We meet again, and my appetite has been filled (for a while, he he). My taste buds livened and my spirit was with joy ever devouring this treat, after parting for such a long time, scoop by scoop. Until we meet again, my sweet friend.

Here’s the recipe if you want to try it: http://pinoyfoodblog.com/filipino-delicacies/how-to-make-ice-scramble/

Have fun! 🙂

A realization, resolution and reflection

I’ve been posting much of my poems lately that I think it wouldn’t bother if I post something else. Its a write-up I did after knowing some unpleasant news of college crush, its written in my mother language. What I hope is that I find other Filipinos here in WordPress (especially girls), and I hope they like this as much as I liked writing it that I almost sound like a radio personality giving love advice. Well, here it is:

  • Realization: Bakit hindi na lang kaya pwedeng yung mga boyfriend binibili na lang? Diba? Punta ka ng mall o kahit saang pwedeng bilihan at mag-eenjoy ka na sa pinagpipilian mo. Kahit window shopping lang okay na. Kung gusto mo, merong stock para sayo , kung di ka makapili maghintay ng bagong labas, kung gusto mong maiba naman mag-order online, kung nagtitipid, bumili kapag sale, o kaya sa night market, sa palengke, kung talagang may pera bumili nung limited edition, haha. Kung iisipin mo pang mabuti ang ideyang pumasok sa isip ko, bumili ka ng mga naka-package, kagaya ng sulit pack, pag mayaman collector’s box, o kaya yung 2+1 free, lima o anim yung laman, diba, parang pabango lang, araw-araw iba boyfriend mo, mapipili mo kung sino ang kasama mo depende sa mood mo. At eto pa, kung ayaw mo na edi bumili na lang ng bago, i-dispose mo na lang  ng maayos yung dati at ganun lang kadali ang break-up, at susunod dyan, madali na rin ang moving on, getting over stage at starting over with someone new.     Pero sa bawat bagay na pinadali, may kaakibat na epekto. Kung wala na ang mga bagay na binanggit ko, wala na rin ang sweet recociliation pagkatapos mag-away, wala ng kilig moments/awkward moments/pasimple, chancing, diskarte moments. Kung walang away sa isang relasyon, wala na ring sorry hug/kiss, kung di ka nadapa, di ka tatayo ng mas malakas, kung di ka natalo, di ka na mag-pupursige.
  • Resolution: Sa mga bagay na gusto nating mangyari, hindi lahat natutupad, si God ang nagdedesisyon, at laging mas maganda ang gusto ni God para sa atin. Sa mga na-basted, tanggapin nyo na, sa araw-araw gawin mong masaya ang isang tao, kahit sa sarili mo lang. At para sa mga nam-basted, wehh? yan na talaga desisyon mo teh? Haha. Para sa mga nasa relasyon, respetuhin at magtiwala sa isa’t-isa, ok? Wag mag-LQ ng wagas. Para sa mga broken-hearted, kakahiwalay, at kahit sa mga may love-nat, ikaw ang may hawak ng buhay mo, hindi siya, at lalong hindi kayo, dahil wala na nga kayo diba? Pinanganak ka para mabuhay , wag mong patayin ang sarili mo sa nakaraan. And lastly, para sa mga naiinip kagaya ko, darating at darting din siya, kapag dumating na siya spakin natin dahil nagpalaboy-laboy muna, o diba, mas maganda kaysa sa “ang tagal kong naghintay para magkaroon ng kagay mo”. Pina-iikot tayo ng pagmamahal, huwag mong sabihin sa sarili mong walang nagmamahal sayo, dahil mayroong nagmahal sayo ng sobra at namatay sa krus.
  • Reflection: Marahil masyado tayong ”obsessed” sa mga “lovelife” natin pero sa totoo lang, lagi tayong may lovelife dahil 24/7 tayong pinapakitaan ng pagmamahal ni God. Sa lahat ng mangyayari sa ating buhay, ika nga, don’t watch the clock, do what it does, keep moving.

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