Movie Maidens: Neytiri

Movie Maidens: Neytiri by berryjudi featuring leather hair accessories

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Flat gladiator sandals
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Rebecca Minkoff denim tote bag
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Tasha leather hair accessory
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Dear Diary #2

July 30, 2012

Dear Diary,

It’s Monday again. My most hated day of the week. Somehow I hope time will come that Monday isn’t so hurtful to me. That someday I’ll learn to embrace it. Maybe because Monday is the gateway to my troubles. When it comes, anxiety, a tired body and a weak spirit is what I show. Once again, only time will tell when Monday will be gateway to greatness for me.

 

I hope so…I will…Until then, thank you for listening Diary. 🙂

Inamorato

I close my eyes, then I mesmerize

A human being, for whom I have a liking.

That figure…of a beautiful creature

I always find, crawling in my mind.

 

I see him, when everything is dim.

The heart that I fervor, is of the sweetest flavor.

You shower me with thoughts, flaming my heart with droughts.

You sew the dark seams, filling up my dreams.

 

Love I didn’t ask for, but it gives me the feeling of ardor.

I can’t ask for more, you’ll always be Mi Amor.

For you I always adore, I bathe in your splendor.

It’s the smell of utter joy in flesh,

Heaven and earth in mesh.

 

Love is the aggregation, of my deep affection.

Now  understand every sweet song,

And you are all that I long.

Even if my world is in blue,

I’ll always love you.

Every second it’s you I breath,

Even the sky is underneath.

Quote – Essay #1

Aside from my ‘Dear Diary’ posts I’ve had the idea to make short essays from quotes I want to reflect upon. So this will be my first “Quote-Essay” post.

“Remember, today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.” – Dale Carnegie

I’m such a weary and anxious person. It is true and I undoubtedly admit that I worry too much that it already eats some of my precious time. After I worry, I’m usually sorry or angered that I wasted time again. Worrying is such a poison slowly ruining what’s ours. Like from what another quote says, worrying is like a rocking chair; it gives you something to do but you never get anywhere.

Now that I’m a third year college student, my worries just worsened. But time and again, I think of something positive. I just idolize my mother for she went through a lot and still stays positive, I, on the other hand, can let negative thoughts inside me. Whether she is really a positive thinker or she puts on a positive side for me and my sister doesn’t really matter to me, what matters is that she does it.

Seems like yesterday when I was still a freshman, or yet a freshman in high school. Time flies so fast that sometimes we don’t catch up with it. Sometimes we’re still in the past, sometimes we want to be in the future. Wherever we are or want to be, one thing is certain, time will always be moving. One day I’ll wake up and I’ll be marching in my graduation, and my worries right now will be yesterday, such true words from Dale Carnegie.

Dear Diary…

Since this is my blog, I’ve decided to share some intimate things about myself, though of course not everything, but things I would be willing to share and tell, like directly conversing with my blog. So here it goes…

July 26, 2012

Dear Diary,

Every time our professor gives one of his ‘slice of life’ speeches, I look stone-cold and bored, but deep inside, I’m so hurt, it’s like knives silently stabbing my heart one by one, each stabbing harder and harder.

He talks of enjoying life too, which is such a blur right now to me. I’m not happy anymore. Much more than the cortisol-inducing stress, I literally don’t know why I’m right here right now. My ‘college life’ is such a sad book. I wake up every day for something I’m not happy or at least inspired to do. It has now gotten to this point that I go to school just for the sake of going to school.

I’m tired. I study, I really do. Everyone says I’m a good student. But being a good student is not enough. I am counting the days until this semester is finally over. One day this will be over, I keep repeating this phrase over and over. It seems like life would really put you down, though you try hard, it’s not enough. You read, study, read, study…An unending process that’s giving me unsatisfactory results. I just cry every time because I can’t collect all the pain. I should let it out.

Maybe it’s because I lost purpose in what I’m doing, that’s why I get so tired easily. I have the thought of helping myself and each time I fail it’s like the sky fell down on me. I found little ways of helping myself though, I posted a motivational poster given to me a long time ago by a friend. I posted it in the wall beside my bed in the dormitory. I don’t read it everyday, the worries of everyday visit me more than thoughts of motivation. But it’s so beautiful that I want it inside my heart and remembered in my brain. Only time will tell when I find my way. Just because my college life is not happy, it doesn’t mean that my life should be unhappy too. With that said, I’ll share the poster to you:

 

Always Remember

Your presence is a present to the world.

You are unique and one of a kind.

Your life can be what you want it to be.

Take the days just one at a time.

 

Count your blessings, not your troubles.

You will make it through whatever comes along.

Within you are so many answers.

Understand, have courage, be strong.

 

Do not put limits on yourself.

So many dreams are waiting to be realized.

Decisions are too important to leave the chance.

Reach for your peak, your goal and your prize.

 

Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.

The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets.

Do not take things too seriously.

Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.

 

Remember that a little love goes a long way.

Remember that a lot goes forever.

Remember that friendship is a wise investment.

Life’s treasures are people together.

 

Realize that it is never too late.

Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.

Have health and hope and happiness.

Take the time to wish upon a star.

 

AND DO NOT EVER FORGET.

FOR EVEN A DAY

HOW VERY SPECIAL YOU ARE!

Hold On To Your Hat

Hold On To Your Hat by berryjudi featuring a pink dress

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Paul s Boutique skull graphic t shirt
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Top
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A Chapter After The River

Always lovely, always a part of me,

The taste of bittersweet agony,

Ina melody, of a brilliant symphony,

heard by every inch of my body.

 

I held his arms,

For I couldn’t resist his charms.

I did it for my sake,

And it turned out to be a mistake.

 

I redefined agony,

It’s when you wanted anybody but me.

At times you make me happy,

But often, I’d end up gloomy.

 

You were all I ever wanted,

I guess life said you’re not what I needed.

You’re only a chapter that’s now over,

For there is an ocean after the river.